In Search of (A Smaller) Self

Any good advice givers out there?

I have this boy in California I’ve been talking to for many months now. 
Im here in Canada, living 2000 miles away! 
He’s given me his full name, family members names, where he lives, what school he goes to.
(I obviously creeped him on Facebook without adding him just to make sure it’s legit)
Which it is!
We’ve traded pictures (no nudies) and he’s very cute in his own way. 
He’s 1 year older than me, which means he’ll finish college before I do. I told him that I still have a long ways to go, in 4-5 years. He said he doesn’t care and that he’s willing to wait another 10 years if necessary.
He told me that he really wants me to finish school cause he thinks its really important to have a good future. And that if I wanted even more school afterwards, to go for it, and he would gladly wait.
So over time, we’ve gone through our likes and dislikes, how we behave and generally gotten a good sense of each other. I feel that connection really. 
But I also have that small part of me that’s a huge, cynical, skeptic.
The point is, is that, he wants to be together in 5 years after I finish school. And I’m not sure if this kind of thing is generally worth it, or a huge naive mistake.
Any similar experiences out there? Advice? Analysis? I’m open to any kind of response.
I’d be happy to give more details.
Inbox me, reply, whatever!
What do you guys think? 

Currently look for: a picture of myself at my largest.

Shock value

lovelyemptyandbroken asked: Don't you have a progress blog or a before and after picture? :)

http://prettyforonce.tumblr.com/post/1440297929/so-these-are-the-before-pictures-i-will-be-using 

This is a photo of me when I was 160. I haven’t taken a good progress picture yet. I should though, and will soon!

Weight Update

So I weighed myself today. 
The first time in a while.

Last weigh in: 139.5
Today: 135.5
Loss: 4
Total Loss: 42.5

Eeek! I’m very satisfied with my progress.
I can’t really think of a time when I consciously knew I was 135 pounds…
It might have been when I was 10 or 11.
The weather is beautiful here in Toronto.
Hope you’re all having a lovely lovely Friday afternoon ;)
 

Embarrassing stories from my past…

Having my own freedom was a big deal to me.
Take for example, the first times when I started going out by myself and getting my own spending money. 
This was both the best and worst thing ever.  
For a fat kid, spending money = food, clothes, food, food, food…
I used to plan out my weekly binges, exactly what I wanted.
Right before I would order my food, I would take out my cell phone and “fake call” one of my friends and ask them what they wanted to eat…
Yeah, sneaky I know.
It was the only possible thing I could think of doing, as I knew how bad it would look to order 2 meal size combos for myself… especially if the server was cute. 

Confession of the day #2: One time I went to the drug store and bought 3 small boxes of chocolate. Out of embarrassment I went and bought a birthday card too so the cashier would think I was buying all the candy for a friend…
It wasn’t anyone’s birthday.

Even though I’m 40 pounds lighter now. I still catch myself doing stupid things like this. A couple of weeks ago I did the “fake phone call” thing at a New York Fries.
My lameless amazes me everytime.

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